Rock Star??

The week my momma came there was a little bit of fun involved. Which was great because it took my mind off of other things. Here are just a couple of pictures from the weekend.Also, since I know Mimi and Bampa want to see this video of Brent singing, I thought I'd put that on here too. It's kind of long, but parts of it are pretty funny.

The past week....

This week I have felt a million different emotions that I didn't even know existed. I wish I were I good writer so I could express what I needed to in a way that would make sense. But, since I'm not a good writer, and since things are still too fresh for me to express my feelings on the internet...I won't. Not yet. I will just say that this past week has been a rough ride. For lots of people, not just for me. I went to the doctor on Wednesday, just to check things out and make sure I was okay. However, I found out that things weren't right with little Baby Hirz. My baby wasn't the right size and things just weren't right. The doctor told me I was going to have a miscarriage. I just didn't really know what to think. Brent and I were so excited, so ready to have a baby come into our home!! It was something that we have been praying for for a long, long time.

Without expressing all of the things that went through my mind, that's really all I can say. Brent has been so amazing to me. He has cried right along with me but he has been the most wonderful person to cry too. I am so grateful, so lucky to have such a wonderful husband. How did I get so lucky? I have asked a lot of questions, things about what happened to little baby Hirz? And, I have had lots of great answers. One thing I am so grateful for right now is the Gospel. (I did get angry though, and confused and I wondered why this happened....) But now I am grateful. (Not that I still don't have other emotions, but I'm only human.) I have this wonderful knowledge that Jesus Christ lives. That I will be able to raise my baby someday. That the Savior knows my pain and that he knows what I am feeling. This gospel really is glorious. It is perfect. I have a Heavenly Father who is just and fair and who loves me and knows me by name. What a comfort.

What a blessing my mom has been. She came and helped us move all of our home, cleaned our old apartment with Brent, and has taken great care of me. I love moms. Mine most of all. She is the best mom in the whole world. And when I do get to have babies of my own, I might be a good mom too. Only cause of her example. And if I'm half like her, I'll have some darn lucky kids.

Done

Nothing like finishing my Junior year at BYU to brighten up a few cloudy, depressing days. Yeah, way to go Carolyn. Way to go.

In honor of me being a senior once again, here is a picture of me when I used to be a senior.

One year folks. One year until I am wearing another stupid looking outfit just like this. Only, it'll be a different color and with a lot less things around my neck saying how smart I am, believe you me.

Oh yes!

Did Jesus Really Live Again? (Children's Songbook, #64)

Did Jesus really live again?
Yes, when the third day came,
He wakened and He left the tomb;
He called Mary's name

Did Jesus come to those He loved?
Yes, people touched his feet,
And of the fish and honeycomb
He did truly eat.

And there were nail prints in His hands
And a spear wound in His side.
Did Jesus really live again
After He had died?
Oh yes! And so shall I!